28 july 2010

i realised that i got a bit bored with my daily life. i use to be playing with basketball everyday. guess what? maybe it had been a legend after all. nowadays, i use to read books.... i sacrifice my time just to read those stpm books.. i sacrifice my eyes... my eyes started to get blur. i cant see thing clearly from far away. maybe it is because i use too much of my sighteness when i read books.

2 weeks more it will be excel exam and almost 100 days more will be stpm. i am still leak of the strength to motivate me study. because i achieve number 1 in my school, i dont have the push to study hard as before. i become very lazy and clumsy through out the time.

i also started to go church which is quite boring to me. listening to those unenlightenment talk by the priest. .. please le.. i think i dont need those thing... what i need is something that can motivate me... to me, those talk is for those who walk the devil path.

now, i still got plenty of sejarah books to study and also geography plus pengajian am & a bit econ.

i still dont have the courage to face the real exam. perhaps i should be friend wit my fear, let fear overcome me and let it be one of me.

fear is my ally. fear confirms me. fear is energy that is convertible to power- our power